Monday, November 7, 2011
Friday, December 17, 2010
i would give it all to not be sleeping alone
Wednesday, October 20, 2010
Thursday, October 7, 2010
:'(
life really confuses the hell out of me
Sunday, September 19, 2010
Thursday, August 5, 2010
Tuesday, July 20, 2010
Sunday, July 4, 2010
Wednesday, June 23, 2010
Tuesday, June 22, 2010
Thursday, June 10, 2010
if you had facebook and liked my status... this is what i would say
Monday, May 3, 2010
Monday, March 15, 2010
love
Saturday, February 20, 2010
your love is my drug
Tuesday, February 16, 2010
post 100
Friday, September 11, 2009
Wednesday, July 8, 2009
:)
not that i only write sad blogs, but now i actually have a life!
Wednesday, July 1, 2009
Monday, June 29, 2009
makes me miss old days!
2009
im extremely happy where my life is :) been living it up, and not letting any silly sickness ruin things! shars was amazing. ive decided i love the class of 09. 09. 09. everyone else is too much shit. haha.
Sunday, June 28, 2009
grr
Saturday, June 27, 2009
Tuesday, June 23, 2009
lifes confusing
i regreted that for so long.
now it's one of the best things that ever happened to me...
schools gay
i love spending time with all my mates and im so looking forward to OPC and the ball but theres hardly any reason for me to be there, ive got no credits and ive done nothing all year.
tbh i dont even care either! haha.
Sunday, June 21, 2009
yay
got drunk both nights and talked to people i havent talked to in ages.
yay lets hope it's a good week at school too xD
Saturday, June 20, 2009
Thursday, June 18, 2009
written about me
true...
Wednesday, June 17, 2009
help, please.
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yay kathryn! :D
Have you ever fallen asleep while texting someone? many times lol.
What color shirt are you wearing? white, yeah im cool still in my uniform.
Who was the first person you talked to today? dad.
What is the last movie you watched? the end of ice age after i got my injection haha.
How do you feel right now? good thank you!
Who is the last guy you talked to? ahh the bus driver? haha.
What are you listening to? lucky by jason mraz and colbie caillat :)
Do you miss the way things used to be? hmm not overly, at times i do.
Do you regret something you did today? in a sense, yes.
If you were in the hospital would your number 1 come visit you? she sure would!
Will this Sunday be a good one? probably will be a lazy hungover day hopefully lol. if rowen has drinks and i can get a fakey!
When will your next kiss be? who knows, soon probably lol.
Do you think it's wrong to have sex before marriage? nope.
What are your plans for tonight? MEXICAN FOR TEA. yeeeah boy.
Who was your last text from? supriya.
What phone do you have? a sanyo one.
Did you hug or kiss anyone in the past 24 hours? hmm not that i can remember.
Who last called you beautiful? i dont think anyone has really. but i dont mind.
Do you think you've changed over the past year? to the maximum. im not a physco anymore lol.
Honestly, has anyone seen you in your underwear in the past 3 months? yes lol. great times ;)
Do you still talk to the person you fell the hardest for? not really. we dont go to the same school or anything.
Who's thinking about you right now? and how am i meant to know that?
Last person you talked on the phone with? michael i think.
Are you keeping a secret right now? everyone has lots of secrets.
What do you currently hear at the moment? where do you go by no mercy lol such an old song, thanks sup and em :D
Are you easily scared by horror movies? hardout, but i still love them.
Does someone like you right now? not that i know of.
Are you friends with any of your ex boyfriend/girlfriends? sorta lol.
If the year consisted of only one season, which would you choose? summer!
What was your worst mistake in your life? :\ parts of 2008.
Have you ever kissed someone whose name started with the letter J ? sure have.
Do you sleep with a fan on? nope we dont even have a fan.
When someone says "we need to talk," what runs through your mind? i always think im in shit with them.
Do you like somebody right now? yeah.
Does your father approve of you dating? he's got no idea about anything i get up to really.
Are you normally a happy person? yeah!
Have you ever dated someone longer than a year? nah.
Do you have the guts to tell the person you like how you feel? kinda... but then i covered it up.
Do you like taking walks in the middle of the night? only if it's to go see someone aha.
Are you waiting for something to happen, if so what? nothing in particular comes to mind.
Will you be in a relationship next month? it would be nice but no.
Has anyone put their arms around you in the past 5 days? yes.
What is the last thing you did before you went to bed last night? watched date my mum and texted.
Have you held hands with anyone this week? yes.
Were you single on your last birthday? mmhmmm!
Is it okay to kiss people when you're single? ive never kissed someone i was going out with lol.
Would you curse in front of your parents? yeah, it's bad though.
Who was the last person to go to the movies with you? i cant remember, i hardly ever go to the movies.
Have you ever kissed someone with braces? nope.
Would you go out with someone right now if they asked? if it was the right person then yes.
Do you think you can last in a relationship for six months? yes.
Does the person you last kissed still like you? as a mate.
What jewelry do you always wear? signit ring and earings.
You're locked in a room with your last ex, how is it? we're mates haha so we'd hang out like usual.
How many pills do you take a day? one.
What would you do if you found out the person you liked had a girlfriend? kinda but nothing i can do.
Would you rather be asked out in person or in text? person cos id think it was a joke over text.
On guys...
Favorite Hair Color? lol any really. LOLOLOLOLOL.
Do Like Long Or Short Hair? short but nice and thick to run your fingers through haha.
Eye Color? any.
Body Type? chubbyish, or like solid.
Taller Or Shorter Than You? taller.
Older or Younger Than You? not to old not to young.
Do You Like Your Guys To Wear Pink? i dont mind, it's their sexuality. LOL.
How Do You Feel About Tight Pants? lol depends, not skinny jeans.
Should Music Be Important To Him? he should like it but yeah doesnt matter that much.
Lighter Skin Or Darker Skin? racist! lol jokes err doesnt matter too much.
Do You Like Pretty Boys Or Average Guys? average, the ones that most people think are ugly haha.
Hot Or Cute? bit of both thanks!
What If He Has A Super Stupid Name? i dont go for guys because of their name lol.
Rich Or Average? this doesnt matter in the slightest.
Lots Of Friends That Are Girls Or Guys? guys.
This Or That
Long Curly Hair Or Straight Long Hair? depends on the occasion.
Rap Or Rock Music Scene? bit of both thanks.
Relationship Or Just Hooking Up With Him? lol i want one but i got the other.
Movies Or A Dance? movies.
Horror Or Romantic Movie To Watch With Him? horror so he can gold me when im scared!
His Style
How Do You Feel About Goth Guys? nty.
Geeky Guys? nty, but they can be smart!
Emo Guys? nty.
Preppy Guys? nty.
Jocky Guys? if they weren't overly cocky.
Skaters? nah.
Gangster Guys? lol naaah.
What About Bi Guys? never ever ever.
Mop Top Or Corn Rows? mop.
Glasses Or Not? doesn't make a difference.
Polos Or Band Shirts? dont mind.
Onto the next bit of questions...
Where's your boyfriend? im single to mingle baby haha.
Name something you did yesterday: cracked up at campbell calling ms picard mum LMAO.
What color are your eyes? hazel green.
What color is your hair? dark brown.
What was the last thing you cried over? when dad hit me.
What's something you really want right now, be honest? to hang out with him.
Does anything hurt on your body? my arm a little.
Is there someone on your mind that shouldn't be? nah, he's allowed to be there.
Do you have a little sister? nope.
Do you like to listen to the radio when you are in the car? i did but now our radio is set to this safe bullshit!
What are you listening to? friends forever - vitamin c.
Do you miss someone? kinda not really.
Do you sleep with a fan on? this was asked before.
How is your hair right now? it's fine thank you.
Will you be up before 7 am tomorrow? no.
Do you wish you were somewhere else right now? yeah kinda.
What did you do today? went to school.
Did you speak to your mother today? not yet.
Three days from now, will you be in a relationship? nah.
Will tomorrow be better than today? idk if it was that'd be cool cos today was a good day anyway!
Do you want to see somebody right now? mmmhmm.
Have you ever slept on the floor with someone you liked? lay on the floor not slept haha.
When is the next time you'll kiss someone? hmm maybe soon.
What would your name be with the first three letters? jes.
Do you think you'll be married in 10 years? well id be 27 so yeah hopefully!
Did you have a good day? for sure.
If you could move right now would you? i can move but i dont wanna.
Are you happy with the way things are going right now? yes.
Do you like being in pictures? only all the time.
Where will you be in an hour? sitting here most probably lol.
Have you ever done anything outrageously dumb? sure have haha.
Are you someone who worries too often? yes.
Tuesday, June 16, 2009
:)
you made me feel wanted for once in my life,
you helped me to see,
you helped me to finally break free,
you fixed me.
and now it's my turn to help you.
Monday, June 15, 2009
Sunday, June 14, 2009
true
Saturday, June 13, 2009
meh
i hope this left you speechless,
i hope this left you praying, begging it wasn't the truth.
i hope this left you down on your knees,
i hope you're going through everything you caused me,
welcome to heartbreak, it sucks.
friday night well spent
singing the climb by miley cyrus
with your friends being back up vocals
great times hahaha.
Thursday, June 11, 2009
we're fucked up.
You should've thought twice before you let it all go...
Wednesday, June 10, 2009
surveys are fun.
What did you last cry over?:lol i was cutting onions in foods :L
What's the last mistake you made?:hmm, id have to think about that.
Who was the last person you said I love you to?:lmao simon! in the hall way when i walked past him.
Who last slept in your bed?:me.
Where do you want to be?:im okay just here for now. but later on...
Who do you want to be with?:im algood with michael right now haha.
Do you honestly love your friends?:more than anything.
Who can always make you happy?:any mates pretty much, they all hillarious.
Who do you love to talk to the most?:my mates!
Who hates you?:lol is it necessary to name names, everyone already knows.
Who do you hate?:hmm, i dislike afew people alot, but i dont hate anyone.
What are you doing right now?:listening to music, texting and this.
What are you talents?:i dont know! lol id have to think about it.
How often do you cry?:hardly ever anymore.
What were you doing last night?:at the open eveing.
Would you ever go back out with an ex?:nah.
Are you a virgin?:yeah.
Is your boyfriend/girlfriend a virgin?:i dont have a boyfriend.
What's the last movie you watched?:united 93.
Ever been in true love?:maybe, i dont know. probably not.
Ever smoked?:yeah.
Done drugs?:yeah.
Gotten high?:yeah.
Ever gone running?:yeah.
Gone skinny dipping?:kinda lol.
Gone streaking?:no.
Played strip poker?:no.
Given a lap dance?:LOL.
Made-out?:yeah.
Sang Kareokee?:yes.
Seen the opposite sex naked?:yeah.
Made fun of a fat person?:probably.
Laughed at somone?:yes.
Looked at someone funny?:yep.
Have you had "the talk" with your parents?:uhh kinda not really.
Been touched by the same sex?:not like sexually touched? haha.
Own any thongs?:nah.
Touched a genital of the other sex?:yes.
Most missed Memory?:december 2008
Do you like anyone?yeah.
Do they know it?no.
IN THE LAST MONTH HAVE YOU:Had someone buy you something?umm probably.
Gotten sick?no.
Been hugged?yeah.
Felt stupid?sure probably.
Talked to an ex?umm yeah kinda.
Missed someone?yeah.
Failed a test?probably lol.
Ate cereal?no.
Danced crazy?it's highly likely.
Got a haircut?LOL i diy'd it and fucked it.
Lied?yeah.
HAVE YOU EVER:Waited all night for a phone call that never came?nah.
Snuck out?haha yeah.
Sat and looked at the stars?yes.
Do you swear?yeah.
Do you ever spit?only if i really have to.
You cook your own food?lol sometimes.
You do your own chores?nah.
You like beef jerky?no.
You like pepsi or coke?coke.
You're happy with your hair?lol no.
You own a dog?no.
You spend your money wisely?not at all.
Do you like to swim?yes.
Call a friend when you get bored?text probably.
DO YOU PREFER;Flowers or Angels?:flowers.
Gray or Black?gray.
Color or black and white photos?depends on the picture.
Lust or Love?err bit of both.
Sunrise or Sunset?sunset.
M&Ms or Skittles?either or.
Tuesday, June 9, 2009
idk really
Monday, June 8, 2009
well, yeah.
Sunday, June 7, 2009
me and rosa haha.
4am in the morning,
hugging cos we are freezing our asses off,
and still pretty drunk.
LOL.
great times.
Saturday, June 6, 2009
Friday, June 5, 2009
ofcourse it is.
Monday, June 1, 2009
Sunday, May 31, 2009
Friday, May 29, 2009
fuck it
especially you, you are embarassed of me! WTF, you are the most pathetic peice of crap i ever met, you wont even talk to people if im there. i hate you for how you treat me, tell me what i did to you? you used me, thats about all i can think that fucked things up. you fucken loser, and now you're ruining your friendship with someone else for no reason. you have changed so much. AHHH!
i feel like shit. because of yous. everyday is shit cos im not even allowed to talk to yous. FUCK IT.
aimed at so many people.
except you're just never nice to me.
Tuesday, May 26, 2009
i want you.
Sunday, May 24, 2009
Thursday, May 21, 2009
oh man
i dont know what im going to do.
cos i can just see how it's going to unfold.
Tuesday, May 19, 2009
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i swear i cant stop crying, when the dads like
'whats it like'
and the littles boys like
'theres no more goodbyes'
:( sad.
Monday, May 18, 2009
Sunday, May 17, 2009
Saturday, May 16, 2009
Wednesday, May 13, 2009
:/
Tuesday, May 12, 2009
You are the first thought in my head in the morning
when I wake up. My last thought before I go to bed.
You smile at me in my dreams.
When you are sad, I feel sad and when I see your
true smile, I feel incredible; like there is no other
thing around and all i can see is you.
You are my somewheres over the rainbow.
you make everything worthwhile. hearing your voice makes the world sound peaceful. seeing your smile makes everything look sunny. being in your presence makes everything feel right. sometimes it's best to forget someone, but if they weren't important, we would have already forgot them. sometimes it's worth the pain and the fight. it's like sitting through a storm, being so miserable, then suddenly the rain stops and you see a rainbow and then rays of sun start to come through the dark stormy clouds. sometimes there is a happy ending. sometimes giving up isn't the right option.
the best things in life, they never come without a fight.
sigh
'and how your so clingy'
sometimes forgetting is what you want to do, yet when i seem to want to do it, the people always force their way back into my life, making it hell. yet when i want someone to stay, they want to leave as fast as possible. nobody wins.
since we met
I wonder.
Wow.
Monday, May 11, 2009
So...
I'm so mad at you.
Yet if you needed me, I just know I would come running.
It's like you have this power over me.
Complete control.
And that's not good.
Anyway today ended up being a good day. I didn't go to school, and I watched Wild Child on ppv. It was good! Also I saw you're name come up on my msn what's new. Yes! You unblocked me. This time I won't screw up, I promise. I had mac and cheese for lunch too that was also a high point to the day. And also I kinda felt a bit sick even though I wasn't, so I don't feel as guilty. Oh well school tomorrow. Now I'm scared.
It was the right thing to do...
I had to lie through my teeth to both of my parents today saying i was 'sick.'
Truth is none of this should have happened. I would have loved to have you guys over, but when my brother threatens to leave I can't just turn on him. Maybe if Michael wasn't aware of all the horrible things you had done to me, he wouldn't have minded you being there. If only he didn't know that you were completely using me because you couldn't find anywhere else to drink. You have had me blocked on msn for ages, you ignore me at school, you bitch about me behind my back all the time, you threaten me, you are afraid of me. Basically you treat me like shit, and quite frankly you don't deserve anything from me and I kicked you out because my brother is aware of that, and he doesn't want to see me hurt.
So to you three I'm really sorry, you guys were welcome to stay.
To you two fuck you's. I dislike you both with a passion.
And Michael, thank you.
I'm okay.
You tore me down, yet you are one of the things that keeps me up. Everyone knows what I need to do, hell even I know what i need to do. I just need to forget you and move on. But something draws me to you, and I just don't know what to do, it's got to the stage where i am completely lost.
Whenever I see you it's like I can't breath and no one else is around but us. I loose my train of thought whenever you walk by, and I often find myself saying to my friends, ohhh what was i saying.
I know this is so crazy, but I like to like you, even though i know you don't like me. For now I'm fine, and despite what I need to do, I think I'll just stick around for a little while longer...