:'(

i just sat there, there was nothing else i could do. surrounded by some of the people i thought knew me the best, i felt like a complete stranger. so i drank, even though i had to be up in four hours, i kept drinking. i smiled and laughed just to keep the lie going, just so everyone thought i was ok. maybe i was a stranger now, cos i was certainly fooling the people closest to me, in fact i was even fooling myself a little. now i sit here all by myself and it sorta sets in you know, i have so many unanswered questions that will stay rhetorical without me even intending them to be that way. i guess all it comes down to is im sorta ready to stop this silly little act now, id like my life back, no wait, i want me back.